I was up early this morning for a stock take at work, it's really satisfying walking the streets totally alone with no sign of a single person or moving car. I took this photo at 06:33 this morning, that single moment was the first time in ages where I felt totally calm and free. I'm really uncertain about my future and not truly happy with my life right now but for that split second all those thoughts disappeared. I don't like to moan, it's not me but if I don't say how I feel it's probably only going to get worse.
I need a change. New things, new places, new goals, new dreams.
So I'll start as I mean to go on, who out there fancies working on a project together? Let's get brainstorming.
How long is your walk to work? I'm always jealous of people who get to walk places. There aren't even sidewalks where I live. Suburban hell!
ReplyDeleteI hope things start too look up for you. You're incredibly talented, I'm sure the proper door will open soon.
"The more you know who you are and what you want, the less you let things upset you." - Lost in Translation
ReplyDeleteI find that that film sort of puts things into perspective when life isn't going swimmingly well. Have you considered moving overseas?
Beautiful photo!
ReplyDeleteI agree in talking about your insecurity (I don't wanna use the word 'therapeutic' but there you go)
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"The more you know who you are and what you want, the less you let things upset you." - Lost in Translation
ReplyDeleteI find that this movie puts things in perspective when things aren't going swimmingly well. Have you ever considered moving overseas?
LET'S DO A PROJECT! When I graduate in the summer I have so many things I want to do! I was thinking... maybe starting some sort of zine for Northern bloggers? It's a mere wisp of an idea right now but if you fancy something to get involved with maybe we should get a few of us creatively together! ♥ Claire @ Jazzpad ps. Chin up! Things are always good in the sunshine :)
ReplyDeleteSurviving is damn hard, and I hope life gets better for you, Mat.
ReplyDeleteI'm always up for projects, not quite sure yet, but I'm sure something will come to mind.
yes, some moments have that magic - no past, no future, just present and the hope! Good that you experienced something like that! Good luck for your dreams and plans;-)Hope you are having a wonderful day!
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i find comfort in knowing that i'm not the only person feeling this way in this world. i'm not in my highest point right now. i guess i also need new goals and new dreams in my life as well.
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i thnik we are on the same spot in our lives!! i feel like i had to move somewhere to get fresh ideas...
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I find I have moments of complete calmness when walking home and see how beautiful the sky is for instance. It sort of washes your worries away... but then reality seems to creep back in!
ReplyDeleteWhat I've learnt is not to bog yourself down too much, looking on the posistive side helps and I find your days go better. I'm stuck in a weekend job I despise but doing what I love which is drawing/painting really helps me. Maybe start an etsy or something? That's what I'm trying to work on I think. Anything to keep me busy since uni has finished!
You passed your driving test remember too! That was a goal that you overcame and you do overcome many more in the future, it may take a while but working hard as I know you do will get you to where you want to be one day.
I'm not really where I want to be either and haven't been for a while and I found it's left me all lazy and apathetic. I need to pull myself together and do something positive and awesome. Do you have anything specific in mind? X
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